Christmas Gratitude

This Christmas has looked very different to Christmases over the last few years. Both in good and bad ways. And that comes with the complicated mix of my health issues where I am so lucky that some have improved and yet some are the worst they have ever been. 

I may not have been able to actually eat christmas dinner in terms of swallowing it but I got to taste it by chewing and spitting which I am so grateful to have knowledge of thanks to this community. I got to be at the table with my family to enjoy the food in this way and when so many christmases have been alone in bed or even in hospital I am so lucky that I got to be sat in my wheelchair with them, to laugh, to talk, to enjoy. 

After the amount of hospital admissions I have had this year I am also simply just lucky to be at home. 

So I’m grateful. Today had the spirit of Christmas, it had family and joy. It was a healing day for a family that have been through so much in the last year. And I’m so privileged for that, not privileged despite but privileged including. Including needing to rest for most of the day, not swallowing food or drink. I am grateful. 

Sending so much love to those who were unable to participate and also love to those who did at the expense of now suffering for an unknown period. 

Thank you to all my wonderful friends who helped make my christmas, and who make me feel loved everyday.